Working

I had my first interview today. It is for a ER technician job at castle medical center. I eventually hope to move into a nurse position from there. It's been a year since I finished school. It would be great to get my foot in the door, but I am scared too. I'm afraid of how it will affect my family. If I work full time, jimmy is going to stop working and stay home with the kids. Bubbas (Nole) is turning one on Saturday. I am SO grateful for the time I have had with him and the girls, especially  during this time of transition. Carley has taken the change and move from the mainland the hardest. She misses her friends, her school, her old house, her grandma, the snow, etc. she still cried about it.  I am glad that I haven't been able to get a job until possibly now in some ways. I think it would have been harder on her if I wasn't around. Also, I am so glad to be able to nurse Bubbas and be home with him. I think I have valued my time with him more because I have feared his whole infancy that I might start working. Taylor has taken the whole move and switching schools twice in stride. She had a few hard days when she started kindergarten mid-year out here last year, but she is doing well and seems to be happy. 

I have to remind myself that Heavenly Father has helped me and my family to have everything fall into place many many times before. Some examples are: getting Medicaid when Bubbas was born, getting into our house we currently live in with amazing rent, jimmy getting into school, me finishing my school right in time before the move, Bubbas being born 2 weeks after we arrived here and not sooner, etc. things will also work out with me working if/when I am supposed to. I have been volunteering now since September and feel really blessed to have gotten that position. Now, we will see where else it will lead. Even if I don't get this position, at least the managers are aware of me now because of volunteering.